2002-07-19 Work yesterday was pretty good, although I managed to get knocked in the head by a horse who was under anesthesia. I swear he woke up long enough to take his back hoof, knock it on my head, and go back to sleep. I sat there with the clippers, hovered over his belly, staring at the offending leg in disbelief. Does this stuff really happen to other people? Sometimes I hate my sexuality. Or, more accurately, I hate that I am afriad of my sexuality. I spend so much time through out the day, wondering if I should tell him/her. I mean, I don't want to fluant my sexuality, but I also don't want someone to try and continuously set me up with someone. It's a simple thing to say, two words, 'I'm lesbian.' The words get stuck in my throat so often though, that I think they have a summer condo there. I fear rejection far too much. It's far easier to lose friends over such a simple thing than most people could imagine. I guess I need to evaluate who and what is really important in my life, and not worry so much about everything else. <-//->
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