2001-11-08 Since my verbally abusive step-father, anytime someone yells irrationally at me, I start having flash backs of him. This happened, and I just started sobbing. When she was done with her tirade, I made my way to my room, where I sat in a corner, clutching a pillow to my chest. My mom peaked her head in my room a few moments later, and came and hugged me, saying she was sorry as she cried along with me. We sat like that for about ten minutes, both of us crying all the frustration out of us. I hate it when she gets like that, which often happens when she is stressed. She's reached a level beyond stress, trying to do everything she can to fix things for us. I am lost as to how to help her. I know I can't take the weight of the world on my shoulders, but I hate to see people hurt. Especially those that are so close to me. I want to make everything just go away for her, and I can't. <-//->
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